Hayley: 18. Florida. Surf. Ocean. Vegetarian. Happy. Single. Starting something new.
I can’t keep doing this to myself. No one will ever replace you. I don’t see how one can open themselves up to another person, when they hurt so much from missing another. It’s so hard for me to sit here and go through all of these things and not think about how badly I want to call you and tell you all about it. No one gets it, because I didn’t throw it in their face. But, you were the love of my life. The only person I always wanted to go back to. No matter what was going on. We could go months without speaking and know that no matter what, we were there for each other. I hate not being able to hear your voice, or see your smile. I just can’t understand why this all happened and what is supposed to come of it. All I know is that I have to be strong, cause that’s all you ever told me to do. But guess what? I’m scared shitless. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life anymore and I need you here. Just make this all stop hurting. Remind me why I’m doing all of this.
I miss you so much it hurts.
I love you more than anything in the world.